I still remember the day I landed my first foot here
yes a year back, naive and a total novice….
I still remember the day I wrote my first anguish here
yes the “calm like a bomb…”, nonchalant and numb now…
This one year away from the family and loved ones,
is one precious year taken away from my wicked life…
This one year full of academic and experienceable gains,
is still one wretched year added to my list of unrecoverable items…
Life teaches you they say, sure I am always learning..
you will meet new people, they say, sure I am a social animal…
you will leave the old people, the loved ones, they say not,
But yet quite ironically, they also say, Dream as if you’ll live forever…
This last year, has given me so much time, enough time for me,
to wonder almost everything that I could never wonder about…
to spend every painstakingly long minute with myself, until I hated it…
to realize so many trivial things, to which I was totally oblivious till now.
Quarter-life-Crisis is what they claim this is, crisis is the only term that I understand !!!
Richer in experience, but still a novice is what I am relatively,
But I am not gullible enough to get lost in this rat race,
because this one year, has made me stop in my strides
and take notice of the things that matter most to me
and question the things that are taken for granted always
whether I am hitting the right stones, that only time can tell !!!
( or see this space in the future !!!)
Right now, I feel numb and it makes me act nonchalant.
I am Still Calm like a bomb, but only with hundreds of explosions inside…
I am Still a novice, but only that I am used to it now …
But I sure am not naive, so do I think …
Yet it is a year gone down …
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